Statistics
On the radio yesterday, the DJ said that 47% of men smoke.
My friend told me about the dinner she attended with 8 other married people: 6 guys, 2 girls. None of them were married to each other. All the guys have cheated on their wives. The 2 girls have been cheated on by their husbands.
I don't know the statistics on gay men, but there are a whole lot of them out there.
That leaves how many non-smoking, loyal, available men?
Ok, so smoking isn't a super heavy variable, but I still would like to go out with a non-smoker. They taste better!
I sort of taught 3 of them exes how to smoke properly, and now they're all smokers, and I'm still not. It's a fun pasttime though, especially with good coffee and an intellectually stimulating conversation. Not that I'm craving for a cig right now. It was just fun, doing that. That's it.
Loyalty. Or infidelity. Now that's a BIG one. One of the women who was at that dinner, she told my friend that it's a given. Men WILL cheat. Is it really that black and white? Is it really a challenge every couple will face? How to go on despite someone's infidelity?
I'm not going to wash my hands of anything. I *have* been there, sort of. I've been with a guy who had a girlfriend when we were going out. And I don't feel guilty about it. Of course I have a million and one rationalizations as to why it wasn't something to be remorseful about. I guess all those cheating guys have their reasons too.
I've been feeling quite lonely these past few days. I don't know if it's because my birthday is coming up. One year older and no one special to celebrate with and all that shit. Or maybe because it's almost a year too, since I've had anyone special.
Then I laugh at myself because if I *really* wanted to, I could go out on a date with these guys asking me out so it's a self-inflicted sort of pain.
And then there's my head saying I'm NOT ready for another relationship anyway. There's a guy out there somewhere who's equally looking forward to being with me, and we will be perfect for each other in every possible way. And I honestly believe these things but I still feel lonely. I'm lonely right NOW.
And still I wait...
My friend told me about the dinner she attended with 8 other married people: 6 guys, 2 girls. None of them were married to each other. All the guys have cheated on their wives. The 2 girls have been cheated on by their husbands.
I don't know the statistics on gay men, but there are a whole lot of them out there.
That leaves how many non-smoking, loyal, available men?
Ok, so smoking isn't a super heavy variable, but I still would like to go out with a non-smoker. They taste better!
I sort of taught 3 of them exes how to smoke properly, and now they're all smokers, and I'm still not. It's a fun pasttime though, especially with good coffee and an intellectually stimulating conversation. Not that I'm craving for a cig right now. It was just fun, doing that. That's it.
Loyalty. Or infidelity. Now that's a BIG one. One of the women who was at that dinner, she told my friend that it's a given. Men WILL cheat. Is it really that black and white? Is it really a challenge every couple will face? How to go on despite someone's infidelity?
I'm not going to wash my hands of anything. I *have* been there, sort of. I've been with a guy who had a girlfriend when we were going out. And I don't feel guilty about it. Of course I have a million and one rationalizations as to why it wasn't something to be remorseful about. I guess all those cheating guys have their reasons too.
I've been feeling quite lonely these past few days. I don't know if it's because my birthday is coming up. One year older and no one special to celebrate with and all that shit. Or maybe because it's almost a year too, since I've had anyone special.
Then I laugh at myself because if I *really* wanted to, I could go out on a date with these guys asking me out so it's a self-inflicted sort of pain.
And then there's my head saying I'm NOT ready for another relationship anyway. There's a guy out there somewhere who's equally looking forward to being with me, and we will be perfect for each other in every possible way. And I honestly believe these things but I still feel lonely. I'm lonely right NOW.
And still I wait...
posted by portergirl @ 11:42 AM
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