A Swiftly-tilting Planet

As confident as I was when I said a couple of months back that I was going to be single for a little while longer, I think I can safely say I won't be single... sometime this year I suppose.

The Universe really does unfold in the weirdest way possible... or should I say strangest?

The attraction is apparent and, well at least to me, very palpable. Yet things are happening slowly and there's no rush and I'm glad it's a slow ride. The past one was dizzying and adrenaline-filled, and it started fizzling out almost as soon as it started.

And then there are the usual mental exercises that accompany these things. Do I really need something like this right now? Shouldn't I be heeding A's advice telling me to run away as fast as I can from guys who are too intense? Like a moth to a flame burned by the fire, says Michael J's sister. It's funny though because it really seems that his baggage goes with mine.

I only hope it's not just the baggage.

Ironic

I was out of the country for 3 months and I couldn't access blogger from where I was. I *tried* posting from there but the laptop I was using just wasn't cooperating. And now that I'm back here, I get a message that tells me that someone else aside from me actually reads this. *gasp*

While I was gone, I took great leaps and bounds towards resolving this dilemma entitled "What should I be doing with my life?", and 3 months later I was still in the same $hithole... up until yesterday.

It was an epiphany reminiscent of Cher's fountain+lights+music moment in Clueless. Except I was in a shoe store accompanying a friend on her shoe-shopping spree. I was sitting in the middle of the store when I received a text message on my phone from a stranger. And that's it. That's how it got started. It suddenly occurred to me that what if that-which-the-text-message-contained was what I really wanted to do instead of that-which-I-have-been-working-on-for-the-past-3-months? I guess I might have had a dazed look on my face because my friend noticed and asked me what happened. So I told her.

I'm glad I was with her that day because she totally knows what I'm going through, having just gone through a major life change herself. She said she believed I would never be happy if I pursued what I shall now call "Plan A" (the one that I had been working on the past 3 months). She was encouraging and she was supportive and she was exactly the right person I needed at that time.

It still isn't a resolved thing, but Alanis had it down pat when she said life has a funny way of helping you out when you think everything's gone wrong and everything blows up in your face.