Worries and whatnot

Six months, still not fighting, and still counting... I'm scared that the reason we're not fighting is because we're not communicating. We talk. A lot. But I still don't feel like I talk enough.

I've also been changed/ am changing. And for the better, I must say. I cook more now (it's something that should be practiced, and develops with time, trust me!) and even bake. I'm also a whole LOT healthier. I used to be a totally sedentary sloth, but now I can swim 1km (that's 40 laps in the pool) in less than an hour, but I still stop a lot in between. Am working on that. I've also been going to the gym for 3 months now and my arms are noticeably bigger. I bench 35lbs. I'm supposed to move on to 40lbs but I don't feel confident enough to lift that much. Of course all of this is to offset the increased alcohol intake! And coffee (with full cream milk, or ice cream even!).

Despite all these good changes, I worry that I'm the only one changing. Why? Not that I have any complaints about him at all. I just want to feel like I made a difference in his life.

I'm complaining but I know I shouldn't be.

Life is good.

But it's better when we're together. :)